January 28, 2011

What a week...

I've been unintentionally avoiding blogging this week, but needed to get it done this morning seeing how it is my last opportunity with a computer that has the internet. It's been such a long, rough week that I can hardly believe I made it through.

Last Friday, my manager (the only good manager I've ever had) informed me and my coworkers that he is leaving the company. Today is actually his last day. I was completely shocked and kind of devastated. Working for him the last year or so has been a great experience. He was so willing to help me learn, pushed me to do things that would help me grow, was always praising and thankful when I did something well. When I found out he was leaving, I was freaked out. I didn't (and really, I still don't) know who my new manager will be. It could turn out fairly good, or really, really bad. All weekend I couldn't help but just burst out into tears at random moments. Don't get me wrong, I'm happy for my old manager. He has a fantastic opportunity and I'm glad he took it. But not knowing where my job sits is very unsettling. Being in the dark has always been hard for me.

Monday night, I had to sub in O-town so I drove up to my parents' house after so I wouldn't be alone that night. I honestly don't remember the drive from the gym to their house because I was so upset. I talked with my parents for a while, got a blessing from my dad, and seemed to feel a little better. I was still on edge, but I didn't feel like crying. After I got home that night, my old roommate came over and we talked for a while. I'm so lucky to have support for times like this!

The rest of the week has just been kind of a blur. I'm hoping that by Monday, I'll know where I stand with my job and I'll be able to make the right decisions concerning the situation. For now, I'm glad this week is over and I can take some stress relief time this weekend... hopefully!